Archive for September, 2018

Stupid leg

Sigh. I think I’m going to have to go to the doctor’s after all. What started as a twinge every now and then in the right leg is now a full blown stiff and achy leg which causes me to groan in pain every time I move 😓. I’ve been putting off going to the doctors with the hope the pain will go away. Ever since I fractured my foot this year, I’ve developed a phobia of going for more scans and medical appointments. There’s also the fear that something more sinister is lurking. Aiyah very sian.

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11pm update. I didn’t get to go to the doctor’s after all. Nap times, bath times, feeding times all fell in place and there just wasn’t time to go. Ah well. Maybe next week? Meanwhile I’ll just start popping painkillers.

On a positive note, I managed to put both kids to sleep in the same room at the same time! I was complaining to Ah ma that Saitaoha sleeps better with me but that I can’t tend to her because I’m with Saitaomei in the other room. She suggested to try having them both in the same room. I’ve tried on and off for the past year but usually give up when one starts wailing and waking the other up. Maybe they’re ready to sleep together now that they’re older? Wish me luck tonight.

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Life will be much easier when the kids are older. But yet I don’t want them to grow up because they’re so lovable at this age. Such a dilemma. No wonder Peter Pan never wanted to grow up.

Saitaoha in glasses, so grown up!

This was her favourite, her ice cream obsession is still going strong.

Melancholy baby.

Hahahaha.

Not amused but I find her so cute.

Moon cake festival

The last long weekend of the year (before Christmas) was a blast. We had both kids for the long weekend and it was just nice as being altogether. The nights were not great of course, but R’s tolerance for disrupted nights had level upped considerably.

This girl is a sweetie sometimes, but she is also the demanding first born.

This little monk is too cute. She’s so mischievous and curious at this age, she’s also very generous with her grins.

The highlight of the long weekend was our movie date and ramen dinner. We really enjoyed ourselves!

Trying out the new coffee place at Raine square with my sister. The bagel was good but oh so expensive. I really should be more hardworking and make my own breakfast at work.

And then it was pho with my other sister! Haha all these sister outings and all about food.

The saddest thing I heard at work today from my early 20s female colleague

I’m pregnant and I’m so worried. I don’t want to lose everything that I’ve worked so hard for. I’m worried that I will have to work my way up again

We live in Australia and it’s 2018. Why is this still happening?

Happy birthday Ah ma

Ah ma and her granddaughters. It was ah ma’s birthday today, we had a simple celebration, some yummy food and a birthday cake.

My ah ma is such a fabulous mother, her birthday should probably have been celebrated with a bit more fan fare. But I’m not sure she would have wanted it that way, she’s always saying don’t mahuan. In fact, she chose to have ramen for her birthday lunch, putting my Ah pa’s preference before her own as usual.

It was a yummy lunch, for me, it was nice just spending time with my parents.

I count my blessings that my kids are getting to grow up with their loving grandparents. I also know how lucky we are to be able to have my parents living a stone’s throw away. For almost a decade, we lived apart in different countries. Contact was through daily emails and occasional phone calls. Perhaps a trip home every year for a few weeks?

I pinch myself sometimes to think how great it is that I get to see my parents all the time now. May we never take that for granted.

Ah ma is the cliche doting grandmother who eats all the bones and leaves the meat for her kids. I know how difficult and tough it is for her looking after my kids, it’s tough for me physically and mentally, it must be even more tiring for Ah ma. And yet she does it with grace, love and patience. I’ll be thankful if I could be half as good a mummy to my kids as she is to me.

Happy birthday Ah ma. May your worries fly away, may your dreams come true, may you be happy and healthy always.

Life

Mine! All mine! 😂

Saitaomei is at such a cute age, she’s been giving us so much joy 😍. I especially love it when she flashes her smile at me, but let’s face it, I’m bias towards my kid, I even find her cute when she cries.

Hi mummy, I is standing. This is her favourite activity nowadays, pulling herself to standing and wobbling on her unsteady feet.

My big girl. She’s so expressive nowadays, her latest thing is saying ‘how about xxx?’ when she’s asking for something. For example if we ask whether she would like some rice for lunch, she might ask ‘how about corn?’ as an alternative. It really works this suggestive tone of hers!

Still obsessed with selling icecream. I wonder whether she will ever outgrow this, I hope not.

We are so pleased that she’s settling well in her new daycare, she doesn’t cry at drop offs anymore and hugs her teacher.

Work is a bummer nowadays. But I have good friends who are always supportive (and will buy you chocolates, flowers and glitter bomb you to let you know that they’ve got your back) and a lovely family who are always there for me. I have my cute Saitaomei who stretches her hands out to me for a cuddle and my Saitaoha who shrieks ‘mummy!mummy!’ when she hears me turning the house keys. What else can I ask for?

Interviews

Today I was on the panel for three interviews that felt like they would never end. Even though the process was painful , I reminded myself that I was lucky to be on the other side of the table. I’ve just agreed to be on the panel for two other job positions, seriously, I’ve got to learn to say no. I was also asked to mentor a staff member ‘what?! Are you sure she wants me as a mentor? What could she learn from me?!’ I exclaimed to my potential mentee’s boss. In the end I also agreed, on the condition that the mentee could reject her boss’s poor choice of her mentor if she didn’t want me 😅.

There are days when I miss my old job. Perhaps not that job itself, but the confidence that comes with the years of experience, the comfort of reliable teammates and the support of great bosses. I do enjoy the independence of my current role, but it does get lonely sometimes. I’m not quite sure what I’m doing or whether I’m doing it right, part and parcel of stepping into new territory I guess.

Ending with a cute (if I may say so) picture of Saitaomei in her new pjs. I’m missing her big sister tonight, I know her papa is missing her too. Ah well, we will have her tomorrow night and indulge ourselves with lots of hugs and kisses.

Sleepless in Perth

Deer caught in the headlights. It was midnight or possibly 1am at this point, I was so tired. But Saitaomei was still very 精神. She was unsettled for the rest of the night and still woke up at 5.30!

As the clock ticked along and the baby refused to sleep, I started getting anxious because it was nearing dawn and I had to get ready for work in a couple of hours. I thought to myself ‘I can’t do this’. Don’t worry, these thoughts of desperation only hit during the wee hours of the morning when I’ve had continuous sleepless nights. They usually dissipate by the morning when the baby smiles at me.

Like this ❤️❤️❤️.

Sometimes when my parents take Saitaomei for the night, I’m so so scared to msg my mum in the morning to ask how Saitaomei or Saitaoha was for the night. When the words ‘slept very badly’ or ‘didn’t sleep at all’ appear on my screen, my heart just sinks. Sometimes I think I should just stop asking because the guilt is crushing. But I still do, always hoping it was a good night and my parents got some sleep.

Ok I’m going to crash now at 7.30pm. One hour and I’ll get up to pump. I love my girls but some days I wish I could take a day’s leave from parenthood.

Saitaomei crawls

Hmm what is this you’re offering me papa?

Can eat or not?

Let me have a taste. Tastes like paper.

I prefer broccoli but never mind, still can eat. Nom nom nom.

Hehe. My Gung Gung has been training me, crawling is easy.

Tadah! Hooray, I’m mobile now, freeeedom!


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