Archive for January, 2019


Wow I didn’t realise the last time I blogged here was six days ago. What have I been doing?

There was dim sum with my parents and kids. It was a lot of fun because I like spending them with my parents a lot, and Saitaomei was bring her funny foodie self again. She loves dimsum a lot! Saitaoha enjoyed herself too, she’s getting a lot closer to her sister and likes playing with her. Only sometimes she’s a bit too boisterous and we have to remind her to be gentle.

Hehe check out that happy icecream truck driver. Jeje was err not as thrilled being the passenger. My ah pa spoils them because he actually pays for these rides whereas I usually just let them sit in them. I don’t remember these rides being a huge part of my childhood but they seem to feature a lot in my kids’ childhoods so far.

The foodie strikes again! I love her eyelashes, Saitaoha also has lovely long lashes too. They didn’t inherit my small eyes and short lashes thank goodness, but I recently did eyelash extensions so now maybe I look a little like my daughters??

It came as a surprise to my family I think because I’m usually very kiam and quite low maintenance. I hardly ever cut my hair, I don’t do manicures or pedicures, my makeup is usually so light it looks like I don’t have any on πŸ˜…. But for some reason I just went crazy and wanted to look nice for Chinese New Year! Now I kinda love having the extensions (it’s so handy to look made up without making up!) but I’m not sure I could go back every other month …

This is the start of something bad…now I definitely want to get my eyebrows embroidered and maybe finally curl my hair ? It’s nice to look good and feel good about yourself though, so addictive. I’m also looking forward to getting back to some exercise activity again. This is my year of recovery and I think it’s off to a good start!


Spamming photos of Saitaoha because I hardly take good photos of her nowadays.

She was mighty pleased to receive freshly plucked off the tree peaches from our generous neighbour.

Hehe modelling her peach? This girl is quite a vain pot, she loves dresses and skirts. Whenever she dresses up she will go to her papa and say ‘papa, look at me!!’ She definitely didn’t learn this trait from me!

One with papa and mei mei, but Saitaomei, δ½ ηœ‹ε“ͺι‡ŒοΌŸMaybe checking the sky for her favourite aeroplanes, she goes ‘wooooooo’ whenever she sees one.

We had a sort of very early reunion dinner of lobster yee mein. My overly generous bil bought 8 lobsters!! I hope his generous gesture brings him a lot of good luck and good fortune in the new year πŸ™πŸ». I think we are due for a good year please.

Live well

Today Ah ma went for a medical procedure. It was her first time utilising the Australian public health system so she was understandably nervous. Of course the underlying fear I am sure for her (and the whole family) was if the examination came out with negative results.

As we grow older, it is inevitable that we’re faced with η”Ÿθ€η—…ζ­». Sadly, our extended family and some friends are going through difficult times, so fears of ill health and mortality are hitting very close to home.

The good news is ah ma’s results were great and all normal. So we all breathed a silent sigh of relief.

I guess the angst of fretting over your own and your loved ones’ health and mortality will never go away and in fact deepen as one ages. The challenge is to not let this fear overtake your life and make you forget to live well. If you’re too busy living and loving, you won’t have time to worry about dying right?

Haha I lol at myself for writing this because I’ve become such a pessimist since last year. But I still want to try to change and learn to live better, I haven’t given up, so that’s a good sign right ?

Old times new times

Last night I dreamt of my old workmates. We were gathering for drinks, catching up after such a long time of not working together, the camaraderie, the jokes and banter, the warm friendship and kindness were still there. Then one of the guys disappeared and turns out he went outside to plant a flag with the emblem of our old organisation. I woke up feeling teary and with such a sense of loss.

That’s when I decided I wouldn’t go in to work today. The night before I was doing the usual devil πŸ‘Ώ vs angel πŸ˜‡ debate on whether to call in sick because well, I am pretty sick and so are the kids. Despite knowing that my coughing, sneezing and sniffling self wouldn’t be welcomed in the office, I always feel guilty about not going in to work.

The whole day I felt useless, unproductive and lethargic. I thought I should start up the laptop to do some work, but I ended up playing with Saitaoha and watching mindless drama instead. I just can’t get excited about the work I do, arrggh. I’m going to try again tomorrow but it’s going to be an uphill battle.

On the bright side, Saitaoha was an angel today. Surprisingly it was R who commented that she would probably respond better with positive affirmations during meal times. My impatience and temper has not gone unnoticed πŸ˜‘. So I tried that today and she was a delight.

It’s difficult not to feel down when you’re sick. Especially when it’s no longer about you and more about how you’re worried you will infect the kids. Sometimes I long for the days when you’re only responsible for yourself. Then there moments like tonight when my girls snuggled up to me and we watched videos together. The sisters were holding hands and their little heads were resting against my chest. Then I thought ‘this is all worth it’.

Park fun game

Little girl is all grown up. Sigh…

Can you stay a baby a little longer please?

She loves exploring new places.

What’s this? I’m not sure how I feel about this swing.

She didn’t show any fear at all and had a little smile on her face most of the time.

I reckon she wanted us to swing her higher. She loves having the breeze run through her hair and will stand in front of me when I’m blow drying my hair.

Wheee. So much fun. Saitaomei’s favourite thing is hanging out with her sister. And maybe Gung Gung too. Total Gung Gung girl this one.

Saitaoha so friendly with the bird that wasn’t as friendly.

The cousins met up yesterday, they have lots of fun together πŸ’•.

Feeling down because we’re all sick, argh I hate being sick so much. Praying that it’s a mild one and doesn’t run through the whole family!

Working from home

Working at home today but really I feel like this πŸ‘‡

She looks very comfortable hor? She stayed there for ages watching tv, such a tv addict sigh.

I’m afraid for both R and I. Saitaoha has been having a cold for ages and now both of us have sore throats 😭. Please ah I cannot afford to get sick, I’ve utilised too much sick leave in 2018 sigh.

In a blink of an eye

Saitaoha enjoying her cheese and crackers. She used to make a mess eating these, but is now quite neat and clean. Her hair is getting too long again, I’m hoping papa will cut it before the weekend.

This little girl was walking around my parents’ backyard the other day and soo delighted to be exploring new territory. She stooped down to touch the pavement, she touched the flowers, the grass. She squealed in excitement and beamed at us.

I find her so cute when nods her head in approval at us when we feed her something yummy. ‘This one ok, keep them coming’.

It’s the second week back at work. It is so much better than the first week because the team is back and we are starting to gel as a group.

But I’m still glad that I’m working from home tomorrow. I miss the kids. It feels as if they’ve grown up overnight during my hours away at work. Don’t grow up so quick my daughters.

First week of Jan

I love this picture that my sister took of Saitaomei! Lately my mother has been taking daily evening walks with the kids. They love it with Saitaoha exclaiming ‘Mummy I love walking!’ Obviously a stop at the playground makes walks even more attractive. Ah ma said they had difficulty getting the kids to go home after their walk today.

Hehe this girl was showing me her mermaid doll because she’s going to see a mermaid show with her yee yee tomorrow. She’s very lucky because yee yee totally dotes on her and is always bringing her out for fun activities.

I’ve been catching the train to and fro from work with my sister. That’s the best part of school holidays, having my sister for company during these train rides. We love trading gossip and chatting away. Somehow I found myself suddenly making chicken rice for dinner, so simple and satisfying. I should do this more often especially since the family all love chicken rice.

Returning to work is aggravating my leg pain, R said he noticed more ‘ows’ coming from me this week. Sigh I just hope it doesn’t mean my pain is coming back in full force, I can’t go through those dark days again πŸ™πŸ».

We met a dear friend for dimsum today. I’m so happy for him because he seems happy in Sydney! It was a lovely way to end the first week back at work. Now if only my leg would stop hurting, I would know for sure that 2019 is my year of recovery.

First day of 2019

Hehehe. The snow app is so cute.

Herrow. ζ–°εΉ΄εΏ«δΉπŸŽŠ

The first day of 2019 was nice. We all slept in except R who started painting at 5.30am! He’s really into DIY nowadays and it amassing a huge collection of tools. I actually don’t mind because it’s handy to have someone who’s handy haha. I also think it’s sweet that he’s building and designing his kids’ playroom from scratch. It’s only semi completed but the kids already love it.

After a six week hiatus, I’m finally returning to work tomorrow. It feels surreal after being away for so long, I’m not looking forward to it but I’m also not dreading it? I know I will miss hanging out with my parents and the kids, but I hope this year I can have a steady work schedule that will balance work/family appropriately.

I’m also hoping by starting Saitaomei in daycare and Saitaoha in school this year, my parents will have more time/rest to themselves. A lot of my stress last year stemmed from worrying about my parents being too tired. Hopefully this year I can alleviate some of that worry by lightening their load. I must admit that I hate the idea of Saitaomei going to daycare though 😭.

The cousins having a great time playing together. Saitaoha gets upset when the older kids leave her out of games because she’s too small to be on the same wavelength as them. Wait for your sister to grow up so she can play with you ok!

Saitaomei was just happily walking around the house holding her wooden icecream.

Even waving at my brother in law, so cute.

I enjoyed our steamboat dinner, I like bola bolas as my sister calls them. We’ve had lots of family gatherings this festive season, I’m so glad I was well enough to attend and participate.

Who knows what the rest of the year will be like? I have some set goals for myself, almost all of them are to do with my health and well-being. I really hope I can achieve them!

January 2019