It’s almost the end of school holidays. I haven’t done much with the kids at all. I took tomorrow off thinking I would bring them somewhere special like Adventure World, but it’s going to be raining all day 😭.
Despite my parenting flaws, I believe the kids still had a fun time this school holidays. This is purely because of family that stepped up in my absence. My sister and parents have been bringing the kids out for treats.
Whenever I disappoint the kids, I always think thank god I have wonderful parents that make up for all my flaws. They get so much TLC from their grandparents and aunties, they have a sanctuary and safe place outside of their parents.
I’ve been with my current workplace for two years yet I still feel like a newbie. I think to outside eyes they think I’m settling well, but I still feel so raw and exposed. I am envious of others who I don’t view as particularly competent, but they are able to mask their incompetence by speaking the right lingo. There are times when I yearn for my precious industry and the comfort and familiarity that it brings. But I also know to go back means I’m actually going backwards in my development. So grit my teeth I must.
Is this the final industry for me? For now I’m thinking maybe not.
daitaoha 