Look at my big girls! I constantly look at their younger photos and marvel how they’ve lost all their baby features.
It was Wednesday but I really really wanted a cafe coffee. Luckily R and the girls were game and off to their favourite Dome’s we went.
So proud of herself for learning how to use chopsticks. I am proud of this little one, that she is a kind hearted and generous girl. But I also worry she will spend her life just trying to please others and sacrificing herself.
This year I exercised more! I’m trying to build up my stamina so I will be ready for our Shanghai trip, but it makes me feel healthier and better about myself. The kids also like our outdoor activities and going for walks with me. Let’s hope I can continue with this more active lifestyle for the rest of my life.
Taka’s for dinner with my sis and family. This nostalgic meal brought me back to my uni days where this cheap meal brought me lots of joy. Even when my parents visited me in Perth this was one of the first places that I brought my mum to eat.
Maccas for dessert, my favourite soft serve cone but I must remind myself that a plain vanilla cone is always the best. A great way to end Saturday night.
Sunday morning R and I decided to walk to the Sunday flea market, it was fun and interesting, I mostly just enjoyed the walk.
I thought we would end up with nothing but we bought these quartz gem stones for the girls. They have a gem stone collection and I knew they would love these.
Then we walked to the nearby cafe for my favourite sort of brunch, bagels and coffee yums.
An afternoon of cooking, sadly the kuih was a fail, I’m such a disaster when it comes to kuih, but we turned it into something else so it wasn’t a total a waste. Highlight was ah ma trying to help me salvage this mess and giggling nonstop, she couldn’t hold back her laughter it was just too tragic haha.
My kids might be baptised by Christmas. I know R has some reservations and he doesn’t want them to get to deep into religion, but overall I think we’re fine with it, at the end of the day, it’s their choice to make. Religion is about faith and if they have faith and belief in God, who am I to deny it ? My father told me about how Saitaomei told him that she wants to be baptised because she wants to see him in heaven when she dies. This sweet child of mine. I hope her faith rewards her and she gets the reunion with her grandparents that she dreamt of at the age of 6.
Happy with my new iPhone woo hoo. I am someone who can put off new purchases for a very long time. Which explains why I still live in a derelict home and have never had a brand new car before. I’ve been wanting to upgrade my phone for a very long time, mostly to get nicer pictures of the kids and family. The grainy, dark pictures were getting to me, worse still, the battery was dying so fast I would constantly be worried about my battery dying out when I was out and me being unable to contact my family or anyone when I’m out and about.
Bright and clear photos of the kids hooray! I feel like I’m all ready for our upcoming holidays next year. Ooh and I’ll be ready to take many cute photos of little Theo when he visits in December. Wow the year feels like it’s almost over, what a crazy year it’s been so far. So many ups and downs.
These two have definitely blossomed and grown up. Sigh I will miss these days.
It’s almost the end of school holidays. I haven’t done much with the kids at all. I took tomorrow off thinking I would bring them somewhere special like Adventure World, but it’s going to be raining all day 😭.
Despite my parenting flaws, I believe the kids still had a fun time this school holidays. This is purely because of family that stepped up in my absence. My sister and parents have been bringing the kids out for treats.
Whenever I disappoint the kids, I always think thank god I have wonderful parents that make up for all my flaws. They get so much TLC from their grandparents and aunties, they have a sanctuary and safe place outside of their parents.
I’ve been with my current workplace for two years yet I still feel like a newbie. I think to outside eyes they think I’m settling well, but I still feel so raw and exposed. I am envious of others who I don’t view as particularly competent, but they are able to mask their incompetence by speaking the right lingo. There are times when I yearn for my precious industry and the comfort and familiarity that it brings. But I also know to go back means I’m actually going backwards in my development. So grit my teeth I must.
Is this the final industry for me? For now I’m thinking maybe not.
daitaoha 