Parenting fail. My girls need glasses. I will miss looking into their beautiful eyes. The first thing I noticed about Saitaoha when she was born were her big eyes, I was grateful that she didn’t inherit my tiny eyes and awed at how incredibly beautiful she was.
My greatest fear is that Saitaoha, my sensitive child will grow up with no confidence in herself and filled with self loathing like her mum. The other day she asked me
π§π»: will you keep me forever ?
π©π»: what do you mean keep you?
π§π»: will you keep me in the house and not throw me out?
π©π»: of course ! I would never throw you out and will want to keep you forever. But Saitaoha when you grow up and get married, you might not want to stay with mummy and papa anymore.
π§π»: I will still want to stay with you !
I wondered whether it was something I’d done or said to make her feel that I wouldn’t want to ‘keep’ her. This is the same child who was really sad that she needed glasses because she was afraid her friends would laugh at her. Perhaps my lack of self esteem has rubbed off my child. Yet it doesn’t affect Saitaomei who is confident and was delighted she was getting glasses because she could match with her favourite Gung Gung π .
I really need to work harder on building up her confidence … and mine.
daitaoha 