TGIF with my parents is the best, except when Ah pa pays for the bill grrrr.
My beautiful Saitaoha is bright and lovely. I don’t give her enough credit and am usually pretty harsh on her. I don’t know why she still wants to do her daily reading with me when I’m so horrible sometimes, I really am a very bad teacher. But still every night she wants to read with me. Tonight she read her library book out loud by herself and even taught her little sister to read and spell. Sometimes I worry that she seems to care about her friends more than her sister, and yet when I hear her nagging at her sister to stay away from the roads, and worrying about her getting lost, I think she’s a good sister.
The girls ask me why they don’t get to see their girl cousin more often. Reminder to ask my sister to let the cousins come and visit more often, and to keep the house in better order so that I can actually invite people over !
It’s been a trying, emotional and disappointing week. Many times I think that my kids deserve much better parents, we can do better on so many fronts. My dear friends tell me not to beat myself up so much, but I think it’s the opposite, I think we’re often too easy on ourselves. The excuses are endless and it’s always easier to blame other elements instead of ourselves for the way things pan out.
It’s not lost on me that my children make my life so much brighter. I am looking forward to the end of this dreary March, I’m really hoping the second quarter of 2013 is much better.
daitaoha 