It was raining cats and dogs today, the night before it was even hailing and my heart sank at the thought of driving in the storm during school pick ups.
Last week I read the tragic news about a couple of 20 year olds who drowned when they drove their car into a lake. It was the driver’s first time venturing a bit further from home since she bought her new car. That could so be me I thought. An inexperienced driver and one with no sense of direction too.
What scares me is not being in a car crash myself, but driving the girls really worries me. I know I should just bear with this overpowering anxiety, because the more I drive the better and more confident I will be. But honestly, when I checked the weather forecast endlessly last night and heard the hail beating against the roof, I was so tempted to tell the girls they could have a day off from school. Saitaoha made it even easier by feigning coughs in the morning (despite loving school, she always wants to stay home when her sister is home with me).
I told myself that I had to do it, that I couldn’t find excuses to not send the girls to school, school is so important and facing my fears is also important.
We made it too, Saitaomei and I! We even managed to stay dry in between the storms and showers. Tomorrow it’s another wet day but I’m telling myself that there’s always a rainbow after the rain.
daitaoha 