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First week of Jan

I love this picture that my sister took of Saitaomei! Lately my mother has been taking daily evening walks with the kids. They love it with Saitaoha exclaiming ‘Mummy I love walking!’ Obviously a stop at the playground makes walks even more attractive. Ah ma said they had difficulty getting the kids to go home after their walk today.

Hehe this girl was showing me her mermaid doll because she’s going to see a mermaid show with her yee yee tomorrow. She’s very lucky because yee yee totally dotes on her and is always bringing her out for fun activities.

I’ve been catching the train to and fro from work with my sister. That’s the best part of school holidays, having my sister for company during these train rides. We love trading gossip and chatting away. Somehow I found myself suddenly making chicken rice for dinner, so simple and satisfying. I should do this more often especially since the family all love chicken rice.

Returning to work is aggravating my leg pain, R said he noticed more ‘ows’ coming from me this week. Sigh I just hope it doesn’t mean my pain is coming back in full force, I can’t go through those dark days again πŸ™πŸ».

We met a dear friend for dimsum today. I’m so happy for him because he seems happy in Sydney! It was a lovely way to end the first week back at work. Now if only my leg would stop hurting, I would know for sure that 2019 is my year of recovery.


First day of 2019

Hehehe. The snow app is so cute.

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The first day of 2019 was nice. We all slept in except R who started painting at 5.30am! He’s really into DIY nowadays and it amassing a huge collection of tools. I actually don’t mind because it’s handy to have someone who’s handy haha. I also think it’s sweet that he’s building and designing his kids’ playroom from scratch. It’s only semi completed but the kids already love it.

After a six week hiatus, I’m finally returning to work tomorrow. It feels surreal after being away for so long, I’m not looking forward to it but I’m also not dreading it? I know I will miss hanging out with my parents and the kids, but I hope this year I can have a steady work schedule that will balance work/family appropriately.

I’m also hoping by starting Saitaomei in daycare and Saitaoha in school this year, my parents will have more time/rest to themselves. A lot of my stress last year stemmed from worrying about my parents being too tired. Hopefully this year I can alleviate some of that worry by lightening their load. I must admit that I hate the idea of Saitaomei going to daycare though 😭.

The cousins having a great time playing together. Saitaoha gets upset when the older kids leave her out of games because she’s too small to be on the same wavelength as them. Wait for your sister to grow up so she can play with you ok!

Saitaomei was just happily walking around the house holding her wooden icecream.

Even waving at my brother in law, so cute.

I enjoyed our steamboat dinner, I like bola bolas as my sister calls them. We’ve had lots of family gatherings this festive season, I’m so glad I was well enough to attend and participate.

Who knows what the rest of the year will be like? I have some set goals for myself, almost all of them are to do with my health and well-being. I really hope I can achieve them!

Takoyaki birthday

Impromptu dim sum brunch with my family. I love dim sum, I think because I’m greedy and I get to eat lots of different things in small portions haha. The egg tart was so good I wish I bought some home!

This girl enjoyed her dim sum session very much! Stuffing her mouth with bao and wiggling her legs in joy. She’s so easy to bring out…

In contrast to this one who was so naughty. Didn’t eat properly and didn’t want to stay in her high chair. I had to bring her out of the restaurant to scold her but she still acted up at home. Sigh.

New oven at ah ma’s house! Her old compact oven went kaput after Saitaomei’s birthday party. I didn’t want to get it fixed because that particular French brand is super hard to fix (we experienced this with the coffee machine) so we got a brand new big one instead. Looking forward to try it out!

It’s my sister’s birthday today and we went over to crash her takoyaki party. She received a Bruno pan for her birthday and we got to try it straight away.

BIL ladling on the batter which is really easy to make.

Hehe so many helpers. It wasn’t easy and we didn’t get it perfect but it was so fun! I want to do it again. I also have a takoyaki pan which R bought for my bday maybe 2 years ago? It’s not as handy as a Bruno but I’m longing to crack it open now.

Looks quite legit right? We were hiding the ugly sides πŸ˜‚.

So yummy when fresh and piping hot though. Saitaoha liked it a lot too.

Then the kids had a song and dance session, really enjoyed themselves. We also had birthday cake which was a nice end to the night.

See Saitaomei was very pleased! Also because she ate loads of birthday cake πŸ˜….

A lovely night, I hope my sister had a nice birthday and all her birthday wishes come true!

Christmas 2018

It’s almost the end of a fun but tiring Christmas Day. I probably overdid it with the cooking and two sick kids so I’m lying down with an ice pack now 😬.

My Christmas breakfast was a very unglamorous Nutella on toast and coffee made by the husband. It was nice hanging out at home with the kids and husband even though I was a bit sian that the kids are still unwell.

Saitaoha is really loving Christmas and the unwrapping of presents. She’s been so spoilt this Christmas, her presents are all so lovely and ginormous! Papa has been busy installing all her toys πŸ˜….

Jo was so nice to invite us over for brunch. It’s so nice when someone else is cooking for a change and they’re always such good hosts. Of course Saitaoha had so much fun with her cousin, I think she wants Christmas to never end.

Malaysian Christmas dinner of bak kut teh, loh bak, vegetarian curry, ngo hiang, stir fried sweet potato leaves. I thought everything was quite delicious, but I think I just like home cooked food with the family. Everyone seemed to enjoy dinner, we had chocolate cake and durian cheesecake did dessert afterwards *burp*.

The kids had fun playing with their Christmas presents and afterwards we were dancing and singing Christmas songs. A memorable Christmas of the best sort, filled with good food, loved ones and lots of joy.

Christmas Eve

Saitaomei in her festive Christmas dress.

We went to my uncle’s place for his annual Christmas gathering. I think everyone had a nice time and it was nice that ah pa could catch up with his brother and get to know his brother’s friends. In all my years in Perth, I saw my uncle maybe once a year? We were never close. But now that my parents are here, I see my uncle a lot more! He has been very good to my parents and has eagerly introduced my parents to his community and church. For that, I am thankful.

What is this mummy? I’ve never sat on grass before!

My kids aren’t well and I think Saitaomei may have caught the tail end of Saitaoha’s bugs. She was quite upset throughout the party and clung on to us.

Get better soon my darlings.

Lucky grandchildren

Saitaomei had her one year old immunisation jabs today. Three of them, poor thing. She wailed and flinched at each jab, my poor ah pa who volunteered to hold her whilst each jab was administered, winced visibly at each jab too. When I recounted the story to ah ma, she laughed and told me that ah pa never accompanied her to any of our immunisation jabs or check ups when we were kids. That’s how lucky my kids and I are.

With R’s job nature and his workaholic nature, I went to a lot of Saitaoha’s checkups and immunisation jabs by myself. I disliked these appointments because it meant a lot of stressing and planning on my part. I wasn’t and am still not the most confident driver and hated getting to and fro these appointments.

My life turned for the better when my parents arrived. Ah pa drove me and accompanied me to so many of these check ups. I remember sometimes ah ma would come along too and I was so relaxed when they were around.

With my poor health these past couple of years, ah pa also drove me to many of my medical appointments. Most of the time he would stay with me but lately with the frequency of my appointments, I asked him to go home first and pick me up later.

This driving back and forth is not something I take for granted. My dear ah pa is not a very confident driver on foreign roads but he will always offer to drive me everywhere as long as it’s for us.

I just sometimes weigh myself down with guilt because I worry about being such a burden to my parents. I am better but I’m far from 100%. I am never in comfort but I thank heavens that at least I’m no longer in agonising pain. I am so impatient to get well because I want to take some of the load of my parents, I want them to stop worrying for me, I want to stop worrying about them. It’s such a vicious cycle isn’t it ?

Sometimes I wish my kids would hurry go up so they can be more independent and self sufficient. But today whilst putting Saitaomei to bed, I realised that for quite some time, she no longer wants to be cradled and rocked to sleep. I felt a huge pang of loss and knew instantly that my baby was no longer a baby.

It almost makes you want to have another baby, just to have another baby again. But I know my parents wouldn’t survive supporting another grandchild and I probably can’t survive without their support too. So that thought is smothered and hopefully won’t surface again.

Day 2

I am nothing without my family.

I underestimated the healing process that would come with the cortisone injection. I was hoping I would be one of those lucky ones that has immediate relief after the injection. Alas it was not to be. In fact, I think I’m one of the unlucky ones that has to go through intense pain before relief starts kicking in. Just my luck. I just hope the relief does kick in, or else all this pain will be for nothing.

I’ve been in and out of hospitals so much this past few years. I would say this hospital procedure was one of the worst, not because of the doctors or nurses or the procedure itself, they were great and seamless. It was because I was sooo exhausted from the lack of sleep. The night before I had zilch sleep because of the pain. I took naughty Saitaomei who refused to sleep from my parents at 3am, and stayed in the living room with her till I had to go to the hospital around 5.30am. My poor ah pa, I kept asking him to go to sleep, reassuring him that I was ok with Saitaomei. But he kept coming out with blankets, and jackets, worried that we would be cold.

I sometimes wonder what I would do if my parents were not here. I’m not sure I would survive or want to survive.

So when we went to the hospital, I was in intense pain because I had to stop talking painkillers before the procedure. It was agony to sit in the moving car, like a cramp that wouldn’t stop. When we reached the admission room, I was the only black haired patient, everyone was elderly 😞. Am I the youngest patient with this condition?

I kept willing the procedure to hurry go ahead because I was looking forward to be knocked out! Yes, that’s how crazy the constant pain and fatigue has made me.

I was so dismayed when I woke up to find that my leg was still painful. Wasn’t it supposed to be fixed straightaway? My blood pressure was unusually high, I could have told the puzzled nurse that it’s from the months of no sleep and constant pain. The pain when I got off the hospital bed and went to the toilet was so intense I teared and cried all the way to the toilet. Luckily the nurses were all so kind and R was there too. They quickly asked for my painkillers and I started feeling better.

My parents flew out the night before . I know they are so worried for me, I feel so sorry that I have caused them so much worry.

I woke up on the second day in agony, my leg felt like it was on fire, R was so shocked to see my pain and quickly passed me my meds. Luckily my sister took carers leave to look after me and the kids.

I still remember a couple of years ago when I had gallstones and was in pain and throwing up every hour. R had gone off to work and I didn’t know how I was going to look after Saitaoha who was only four months old. I called my sister sobbing for help. Immediately she left work, and both my sisters turned up at my doorstep, hustled me to bed and looked after my baby.

Well my saviour did it again. She played with the kids, Saitaoha especially was so happy that yee yee was there. She bathed them, fed them.

We had a picnic of Ubereats Nandos which was such a novelty for Saitaoha. They were so happy.

She stayed all the way till she had to go pick HC from work. And even then she took Saitaoha with her, lessening my workload, but Saitaomei is easy nowadays anyway.

She came back with yummy Lin’s cuisine for dinner, it was a fun dinner and I felt so much better than the start of the day.

I believe it was because I could truly rest knowing my sister would take care of the kids. I trust her completely like how I trust my parents completely. If I’m honest, I’m not sure I trust my own husband that much, isn’t that sad?

I slept. I really did! I slept so deeply that I was shocked when I woke up to see it was nearing lunchtime. I have really forgotten what it feels like to fall asleep and wake up.

What will tomorrow bring? Will my condition improve over time? I can only pray and hope so. But this post is just a reminder to never take my family for granted, to remind myself that I’m so lucky to have family that I can always count on in my time of need.

I may be going through my darkest times, but my family will always lead me towards the light.

June 2019
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